I've just started year 12 and so far it's not going to well. I haven't slept much so i'm having trouble concentrating and have bad headaches. But it's up to the point that i'm that tired i just can't sleep which isn't helping.
And the sleeplessness is caused mostly between the 'disagreement' between my mother and I.

I want to start at the beginning and finally tell the whole story to someone, but i doubt the internet is the best way to tell someone. But an old friends brother a couple of years ago was jailed for reasons i will not go into. But i believe his side of the story because he was also a good friend of mine, but my mother doesn't. So now, after six years i have finally been able to catch up with my old friend, but my mother doesn't want me getting too 'close' because of what her brother supposively did. I have tried openly discussing the matter with my mother but she insists that my friends brother is where he belongs and that i shouldn't see my friend because she could do the same thing. But what my mother doesn't understand is that i was good friends with them and i knew them inside out and that they were never bad people, they were my best friends in my younger years one i had no one else. I knew them right up to the point when her brother was jailed, then my mother refused to let me see them. I feel horrible that i haven't spoken to either of them for years just because my mother was afraid. i understand her point that she is scared for my safety, but she needs to understand that they are my friends and i wasn't there to help them through the toughest part of their life. So what does that make me as a friend if i can't be there for them, just because my mother is afraid?